Wednesday, March 21, 2007
So different yet the same, so close yet so far.

truths & lies

lie:
i dont like you anymore
truth:
i love you

lie:
i dont care
truth:
i care so much it hurts

lie:
i dont miss you at all
truth:
i miss you really

lie:
i'm sorry
truth:
i'm still sorry

lie:
i dont think about you at all
truth:
you're stuck in my head

lie:
leave, go away
truth:
stay

there are so many truths & lies but i just cant.. cant do this anymore.

fuckfuckfuckfuck i hate this i hate this. why why why why is this happening. i'm not cheerful not cheerful not cheerful.

i'm going t break down soon.

forget forget forget avoid avoid stop stop stop stop stop stop leave leave leave leave

i dont have the rights t smile/laugh anymore. i made someone so miserable. HOW COULD I EVEN DO THIS KIND OF THINGS! someone kill me, hate me, leave me, slap me. scold me

girl, you dead.

i laughed/smiled alot today, yet i'm not allowed, i cant. i cannot be happy. i cant. i really cant. how can i smile when someone is crying. how can i laugh when someone is dying. i cant.

save me

be my escape, please.

5:28 AM

Flyyyyyyy,