Tuesday, March 20, 2007
So different yet the same, so close yet so far.

i dont know what is wrong with me. you're really good yknow? you got me now. i've lost my spirit.. to go on. i know positive attitudes are v important and it's what i must have now at this time. but why can't i just think of happy thoughts for a second? jx called last night. usually i would have jumped for joy, but i cried like a baby once i heard his voice. i miss the midnight talks and playing with mum's make up and so so so many wrong but fun things we did. are fun/good things always wrong? damn i'm just sinking deeper.

gab says there's no problems in this world at all, it's th people that choose to have problems to solve. sigh why the hell did i create this problem? there's no problem at all. smile/cry? it's all up t me! :D (sigh)

steph what is wrong with you?

kept reading chemistry today, held back my tears so many times. i mean, people are always telling me t cheer up, & smile. but i keep disappointing. couldnt go high at all today. oh man.

useless, useless shit. that's what i dont want t be.

fake smiles. i hate th way you look at me. just fuck off okay? leave me alone. i'm not even the reason you guys broke up. get it right. damnit
so are you happy now? t see me so down, i'm sure you're having a real good time reading all these. w a big grin on your pretty face :D hate all you want, if it makes you happier..

6:01 AM

Flyyyyyyy,